JaDoye CheshmanaT

hala tora cheshmanat ra tore digar negah mikonam,,yani be khodam,be cheshmanam jorat dade am ke tora tore digar negah konam...negahi ke modatha dar daronam mansokh shode bood..var oftade bod..na padid shode bod va man..bavar nadashtam ke digar negaham ba negahe kasi antor ham khabegy konad..hala too,,dar markaze talaghye tamame afkare man istadee,,hamantor ke hamishe dar royahayam ba lebase aroosi istade bodi be derakhte sabzi ke oshet andame zarifat bod tekye dade bodi,,dastanat ra poshte kamaratdar ham gereh karde e va zol zol be man negah mikoni,,aya khastan fara tar az zamano makan nist???
zendegy ghomarbazi ghahar ast,,ya kheili dir miayad,,ya kheili zood,,ke man dir hayash hastam va to hanoz dar vasattarin noghteye afkaram,,lavandane va masomane pelkhayat ra beham mizani va labkhand roye labanat naghsh mibandad...to hamantoor ke bayad bashi hasty....ziba..masom..por az osyan..por az khastan..mehraban..dochar,,va dooor....!!!
jami az tanaghoz ha va tafavot ha va man,,tanaghoz hayat ra dost daram ke tamameshan az to hastand...
chand shabist ke jorat karde am tora tore digar negah konam...tarkibi az cheshmanat ra va labane bogh karde va khandanat ra dor az afkare parishanam..ghab karde am tora va hamash negahat mikonam...
zibaye man...zibaye man?? na ... na ... na..to hichgah baraye man nabodi,,nisty va nakhahi  bood..fereshtee bodi az janebe khoda k layeghat nabodamo nemishavam...tanha sahmam,,akse ghab kardeye andame zarifo sorae masomat ast,,ke labkhand mizanio istade va mara zol zol negah mikoni....tanha sahmi ke ghab karde am va bar divare viran shodeye afkaram zade am...
Soratam martob shod...gerye mikoni mehraban?? boland shoo,,sarat ra zire abe sard begir,,soratat ra beshor va beyaa,,taze ebtedaye sohbat ast va hanoz harf haye nagofte ziyad daram,,,,harf haye nagoftee ke be to gofte am va hala dar kado pichi az kalamate ram nashode va vashshi jolan midahand,,sara zir mishavand ta baraye to benevisam.....

bya farar konim az ham,,posht b poshte ham beistim,,to ro be gharb,,man ro be shargh,,to masire maghreb ra begir va farar kon az man,,man masire mashregh ra begiram va farar konam az to,,yek band bedavim,,bedone tajdide nafas va tajdide ghova...midavim va az ham door mishavim..posht b poshte ham mi estim,,kamar hayeman ra be ham bechasbanim..az posht daste hamdigar ra shayad baraye akharin bar migirim va ba avain ghatre ashki ke az cheshmaneman chekid farmane farar sader mishavad...pas bodo..man az to dor mishavam va to az man,,be poshte sare ham negah nemikonim....
na rafigh ,,eshtebah nakon....farari dar kar nist.....maghrebe to roozi mashreghe man khahad bood va mashreghe man roozi maghrebe too...ke zendegy dayere ast va zimin dayere ast va taghdir ham....roozi baz b ham khahim resid..rozi ke to be shargh midavi va man be gharb..na farar dar kar nist..hich akharin bari dar kar nist..akharin bar ,,avalin bar mishavad va dobare shoroee noo,,na rafigh,,farari dar kar nist......

pas ro b royam be ist,,pas ro b royat mi estam...to poshte b maghreb va man posht be mashregh...ro dar ro,,cheshm dar cheshm,,sorat dar sorat...dastat ra b man bede va man ham dastam ta be to dade am...ba daste chapat...daste rastam ra begir va ba daste rastat daste chapam ra,,dastanat ra feshar midaham,,dastanam ra feshar midahii,,dar cheshmanat zol zol negah mikonam va to,,,zol zol negah mikoni,,,saram ra dar maghrebe shaneat migozaram va AZ to be khodaT farar mikonam,,Az man be khodam farar kon...

hala tora ziba tar az ghabl negah mikonam,,shahvate kashfe cheshmanat khab ra az cheshmanam gerefte,,be to khire mishavam va mabhote sardye negahe mehrabanat mishavam vaghty be zoor mikhandi,,vagty ke poshte negahat midane min haye amal nakarde ast va to mitarsi,,ke man ham mitarsam,,to az man va enfejare afkarat mitarsi va man az viraniye too,, az ashobe zehn to va bi taghatyat az doory,,cheshmanat ra beband dokhtare ziba,,cheshmanat ra beband zibae mehrabane man...dastane zarifo barikat ra roye soratat begzar..aram..nafasi amigh bekesh..dastanat ra az roye soratat sor bede ta beyne mohayat,,mohayat ra parishan kon,,beham beriz,,benshin va negaham kon..man ra bebinke chegone mahve tamashaye too..mahve zibaye haye kashf nashodeye to hastam..aram begir dokhtar,,man ba to hastam va tora dar kenare afkaram hes mikonam..va lams mikonam nam ashk haye dele gerefte at ra..tora taha nakhaham gozasht..min hara tak tak khonsa mikonam..man takhribchye kabos haye to hastam vaghty negaran va larzani...
azizakam,,aram begir...shab hengam ast va shab ,,vaghte jonon haye khofte va osyangare mast..emshab ra dar khab begzaran,,begozar khabat ra bebinam,,bekhab ta shayad dar khab,,,ke na osoli hast va na akhlaghi hast va na doori hast va na.....va to male mani,,be aghoshat bekesham,,dar miyane dashty ke shemshad hayash ta kamareman bala amade ba to bedavam,,dar kenare berkee ke zire derakty benshinim,,ba to bekhandam ,,ba to begoyam,,ba to aram shavam,,saram ra roye shane at bogzaram va dar khab be khab beravam,,Ta baz khabe tora bebinam...!!!

__PeYneVeshT__: 1.ba khodam ahd karedam ke baraye to,,baraye arameshe to va sokone ghalbat be khodam mosalat basham va akhlagh haye tondam ra tark konam. ba khodam ahd karde am ke ghezavat nakonam va hakim nabasham..nemidanam to ba khodat che ahdi kardee??
2.dobare dochare perude neveshtan shode am ama mikhaham kami sabor basham va bogozaram har etefagh va har chizi kami tah neshin shavad va bad benevisam,,magar mishavad hafry baraye in rooz ha nadasht?? magar mishavad? han??
3.fekr nemikardam Deltangy va ezterab va ENTEZAR va...talfigheshan inghadr vahshatnak bashad..!!