Akharin vasyat

inja minevisam k hamishe bemanad..mostanad bashad ta vaghty k emzayash kardim nagim k nagoftim,,nagim k nemidanestim...
minevisam k harvaght deleman gereft beyaemo bekhanim o befahmim che ahdi bastim...minevisam vasiyat name am ra b to..vaghty k gharar ast nabasham pishat,,,chera vasiyat name? chon vaghty nabasham ehsasam nabashad ba morde farghy nadaram..
pas gosh kon chon baraye to minevisam nazanin...baraye vaghty Dar sare rah derakhte sib didio talkhi in roozhae sakht b yadat ayado sib ra gaz nazani...hata negah nakonio beravii,,,
man darde mohabat ra hargez b to naspordam,,,in oghdeye dirin ra midanio midanam...
bar marsiyeam bengar,,,naghshe rookhe khod binii....
in gheseyee ghamgin ra mikhanio Mikhanam..!!
barayat migoyam nazaninam k rahat ra entekhab kon,,hadaf haye doros ra peyd kon...dorost zendegy kon...to fereshte hasty nemitavani kharab shavii taghatash ra nadarii,,,pass beman hamchenan khoob...!!
barayat gofte am az ravabete kasif k hame haman ast k gofte am hamishe va baz ham migoyam k az anha ejtenab konn....be to sabet kardam k in ravabet dar harshekli bashad joz tebghe roosoomat kasif ast..b hich gheymaty khod ra kasif nakonn...b hichkas etemad nakoon jooz khodat,,dar in donya tanha kasi k ghabele etemad va mohem ast khodat hasty...!!
midanam taarife to ba man argh mikonad,,vali khodat ham midani k man bishtar dar miyan e in palidiha  bodamo zendegy kardamo mordamo va hala hasele hame tajrobyato heshayam ra barayat migoyam...b to goftam az rooz haye avaal b to goftam az pasty hayam b to hame chiz ra goftam,,khod ra ghorbani kardam...ghororam ra niz...k to bedanio be to sabet shavad k donya inghadrha ham ziba nist...
moadelate in donya hich vaght doros az kar dar nemiayad...hata dar pak tarin sharayet chize paki vojood nadarad..Nemidanam be to sabet shod ya na vali midanam k baraye esbatash tavane sangini dadam...!! Kash betavani ...kash ro dar vaysi ra begozari kenar ..fekr nemikonam sakhttar az eterafato shekastane man bashad dar in majall...!!
harvaght khasty natavani ,,ya chizi nashavad,,ya javgir shavi,,,ya betarsii,,,ya .... b Arzeshe ghorbani byandish...ba in ke chize ziyadi nabod vali dar hale hazer tamame sarmaeo daraeyam bood k paye in mozoo gozashtam...agar in khon paymal shavad,,,digar che mimanad az man?
Dast nayaftani shoo...maghror bash...hame chiz dari va chizi ham kam nadari....Tori bash k kasi b khodash joraat nadahad k b too hata fekr konad che beresad b jesarato tohin...!!

inghad zarifi k ba yek negahe harze mishkanii..ama to khalvate khodam tanha faghat male manii..
tarsam ine k roo tanet jaye negaham bemoone...ya Roye tisheye cheshat ghobare aham bemone..
to pako sade mese khab,,hata ba bose mishkani...shekle hame arezooham,,tajasome khabe mani...
hata ba inke hichkas,,,mese man asheghe too nist...pishe to ayneye chesham haghire layeghe to nist..!!

yadat miayad...hich tasavori az akhare majara nadashtim,,hala hamin shod k mibinio mibinam...!! fasele...Fasle..va baz ham bishtar fasele...hekayate mano to bare manfio mosbat ast k harche zor mizani manfiye vojode man dar kenare pakio mosabte vojode to nemimanad va baz ham faselo fasele...
vali kash b vasyate man amal koni,,tanha chizi k roham ra aram mikonad hamin ast,,bavar kon hes mikonam...bavar kon vaghty b man fek mikoni hes mikonam az rahe door ,,harcheghadram begooyee k fasele marge beyne dastae to ta man...vali baz ham zendegy ine hasele eshghe to ba man....
kash befahmi k vaghty tora bargi dar daste bad bebinam,,bi angize ,,bi hadaf va bi hoviyato dast yaftani che hali b man dast khahad dado che mikonam ba khodam,,,kochektarin hese manfi ra peygiri mikonam,,az halat jooya mishavam..man hamishe hastam...harvaght etefaghi soali moshkeli pish amad..hamchenan mahramat manam...!!
faghat eltemasat mikonam k in akharin khasteam vasiyatam ra anjam bede...hamishe Ba YaDat aram mishavam...!!!

To chesham ashki namonde,,to delam harfy nadaarm..dge vaghte raftane..safare dor o deraze...!!!
Entezare rooze barfy..to delam dagh zade sarma..entezare aftabe garm..to delam yakh zade ama..!!

Khodaya Fereshtee k rozegari barayam b amanat ferestadii k b man kheili chizhara sabet koni,,b khodat baz migardanam...khodat shahedi tamame sayam ra kardam dar hefazatash...khatayam ra bebakhsh...