hala tora cheshmanat ra tore digar negah mikonam,,yani be khodam,be cheshmanam jorat dade am ke tora tore digar negah konam...negahi ke modatha dar daronam mansokh shode bood..var oftade bod..na padid shode bod va man..bavar nadashtam ke digar negaham ba negahe kasi antor ham khabegy konad..hala too,,dar markaze talaghye tamame afkare man istadee,,hamantor ke hamishe dar royahayam ba lebase aroosi istade bodi be derakhte sabzi ke oshet andame zarifat bod tekye dade bodi,,dastanat ra poshte kamaratdar ham gereh karde e va zol zol be man negah mikoni,,aya khastan fara tar az zamano makan nist???
zendegy ghomarbazi ghahar ast,,ya kheili dir miayad,,ya kheili zood,,ke man dir hayash hastam va to hanoz dar vasattarin noghteye afkaram,,lavandane va masomane pelkhayat ra beham mizani va labkhand roye labanat naghsh mibandad...to hamantoor ke bayad bashi hasty....ziba..masom..por az osyan..por az khastan..mehraban..dochar,,va dooor....!!!
jami az tanaghoz ha va tafavot ha va man,,tanaghoz hayat ra dost daram ke tamameshan az to hastand...
chand shabist ke jorat karde am tora tore digar negah konam...tarkibi az cheshmanat ra va labane bogh karde va khandanat ra dor az afkare parishanam..ghab karde am tora va hamash negahat mikonam...
zibaye man...zibaye man?? na ... na ... na..to hichgah baraye man nabodi,,nisty va nakhahi bood..fereshtee bodi az janebe khoda k layeghat nabodamo nemishavam...tanha sahmam,,akse ghab kardeye andame zarifo sorae masomat ast,,ke labkhand mizanio istade va mara zol zol negah mikoni....tanha sahmi ke ghab karde am va bar divare viran shodeye afkaram zade am...
Soratam martob shod...gerye mikoni mehraban?? boland shoo,,sarat ra zire abe sard begir,,soratat ra beshor va beyaa,,taze ebtedaye sohbat ast va hanoz harf haye nagofte ziyad daram,,,,harf haye nagoftee ke be to gofte am va hala dar kado pichi az kalamate ram nashode va vashshi jolan midahand,,sara zir mishavand ta baraye to benevisam.....
bya farar konim az ham,,posht b poshte ham beistim,,to ro be gharb,,man ro be shargh,,to masire maghreb ra begir va farar kon az man,,man masire mashregh ra begiram va farar konam az to,,yek band bedavim,,bedone tajdide nafas va tajdide ghova...midavim va az ham door mishavim..posht b poshte ham mi estim,,kamar hayeman ra be ham bechasbanim..az posht daste hamdigar ra shayad baraye akharin bar migirim va ba avain ghatre ashki ke az cheshmaneman chekid farmane farar sader mishavad...pas bodo..man az to dor mishavam va to az man,,be poshte sare ham negah nemikonim....
na rafigh ,,eshtebah nakon....farari dar kar nist.....maghrebe to roozi mashreghe man khahad bood va mashreghe man roozi maghrebe too...ke zendegy dayere ast va zimin dayere ast va taghdir ham....roozi baz b ham khahim resid..rozi ke to be shargh midavi va man be gharb..na farar dar kar nist..hich akharin bari dar kar nist..akharin bar ,,avalin bar mishavad va dobare shoroee noo,,na rafigh,,farari dar kar nist......
pas ro b royam be ist,,pas ro b royat mi estam...to poshte b maghreb va man posht be mashregh...ro dar ro,,cheshm dar cheshm,,sorat dar sorat...dastat ra b man bede va man ham dastam ta be to dade am...ba daste chapat...daste rastam ra begir va ba daste rastat daste chapam ra,,dastanat ra feshar midaham,,dastanam ra feshar midahii,,dar cheshmanat zol zol negah mikonam va to,,,zol zol negah mikoni,,,saram ra dar maghrebe shaneat migozaram va AZ to be khodaT farar mikonam,,Az man be khodam farar kon...
hala tora ziba tar az ghabl negah mikonam,,shahvate kashfe cheshmanat khab ra az cheshmanam gerefte,,be to khire mishavam va mabhote sardye negahe mehrabanat mishavam vaghty be zoor mikhandi,,vagty ke poshte negahat midane min haye amal nakarde ast va to mitarsi,,ke man ham mitarsam,,to az man va enfejare afkarat mitarsi va man az viraniye too,, az ashobe zehn to va bi taghatyat az doory,,cheshmanat ra beband dokhtare ziba,,cheshmanat ra beband zibae mehrabane man...dastane zarifo barikat ra roye soratat begzar..aram..nafasi amigh bekesh..dastanat ra az roye soratat sor bede ta beyne mohayat,,mohayat ra parishan kon,,beham beriz,,benshin va negaham kon..man ra bebinke chegone mahve tamashaye too..mahve zibaye haye kashf nashodeye to hastam..aram begir dokhtar,,man ba to hastam va tora dar kenare afkaram hes mikonam..va lams mikonam nam ashk haye dele gerefte at ra..tora taha nakhaham gozasht..min hara tak tak khonsa mikonam..man takhribchye kabos haye to hastam vaghty negaran va larzani...
azizakam,,aram begir...shab hengam ast va shab ,,vaghte jonon haye khofte va osyangare mast..emshab ra dar khab begzaran,,begozar khabat ra bebinam,,bekhab ta shayad dar khab,,,ke na osoli hast va na akhlaghi hast va na doori hast va na.....va to male mani,,be aghoshat bekesham,,dar miyane dashty ke shemshad hayash ta kamareman bala amade ba to bedavam,,dar kenare berkee ke zire derakty benshinim,,ba to bekhandam ,,ba to begoyam,,ba to aram shavam,,saram ra roye shane at bogzaram va dar khab be khab beravam,,Ta baz khabe tora bebinam...!!!
__PeYneVeshT__: 1.ba khodam ahd karedam ke baraye to,,baraye arameshe to va sokone ghalbat be khodam mosalat basham va akhlagh haye tondam ra tark konam. ba khodam ahd karde am ke ghezavat nakonam va hakim nabasham..nemidanam to ba khodat che ahdi kardee??
2.dobare dochare perude neveshtan shode am ama mikhaham kami sabor basham va bogozaram har etefagh va har chizi kami tah neshin shavad va bad benevisam,,magar mishavad hafry baraye in rooz ha nadasht?? magar mishavad? han??
3.fekr nemikardam Deltangy va ezterab va ENTEZAR va...talfigheshan inghadr vahshatnak bashad..!!
darya k tofani mishavad mowj ha az ham sebghat migirand va khod ra be sakhre ha mikoband,,teke teke mishavand va ghatre ghatre dar hajme hava khod namaee mikonand...shab haye toofani va khashmgine darya tarsnak tar az an ast ke del b darya bezani....roye sakhre ha va ro be darya mi eisty va ba andooh negah mikoni va ajez az aram kardane daryaee,,daryaee ke vaghty aram ast doost dari khodat ra toosh ghargh koni va del ke hich,,hazeri zendegyat ra be vojodash hedye koni va az hame chiz barayash begzari....
aman az shabhaye tofanye darya va khoroshe daronyash ke mikh kobat mikonat...dar boht rahayat mikonad va boghz az natavani tamame vojodat ra por mikonad ,,,,zibast ,,Ama Andohnak...!!
azizakam,,,vaghty tofani mishavi dost daram barayat sakhre shavam ta mowj hayat ra be vojodam bekobani,,vaghty tofani mishavi andoh vojodam ra migirad va az doori va natavani faghat negah mikonam va zire lab tekrar mikonam,hey migoyam ,,,khodaya kodaya daryae mara aram kon...aram kon..khoroshe dokhtare zibae mara aram kon,,aram kon...
vaghty tofani mishavi ,ajzam az doorist va manand vaghty mishavam ke ro b darya istade am va be khorosheo tofane darya khire shodeam...ama....ama..agar hengame tofani shodanat,,hengame khorosh o abri bodanat,,pishat basham...midanam ke digar Ajez nakhaham bood...!!
Dasthaye ma mojeze gar tar az an chizist ke miandishim...dasthaman ,,garmaye vojodeman ,,vaghty ke dar javare ham az shoogh,,feshareman mioftad va yakh mikonim va az eshtyagh va garmaye daron be larze mioftim,,mojeze gar tar az aftabe pas az tofan ast...agar hengame khoroshat,,pishat basham,,digar khire negahat nemikonam va digar ajez az tofanat nistam,,lab haye ma berahne tar va bi hayatar az nare haye nime shabe tofanist....
na na na...hala dar in doori baraye aram kardane tofanat hata ajez tar az mozik haye hastam ke gosh midahi,,ajez tar az hors haye sar dardat,,,,ajeztar az daftare khaterateman,,ajeztar az aroosakhayat,,va takhte khab ke panah gahe hamishegyat ast...hala ke doram faghat mitavanam barayat sakhree basham ta mowj hayat ra be man bekobi va aram shavi....
kenarat hastam,,hata dar hengame khoroshe daryaeyat,,refaghate ma amightar o rishe dar tar az tofan haye zood gozar ast,,,ke seyghal midaham roham ra,,manande sakhre haye ro b darya,,ba mowj haye khoroshanat...
aram bash dokhtare ziba....aram bash banoye man....aram bash tasvire ghab shode roye sineye sangine divar haye otagham...aram bash dokhtare mehraban,,aram bash tanha sojeye neveshte haye Asheghane...!! aram bash dokhtare barfi va sefidam....dokhtare ostovar va larzanam....aram bash banoye man,,,aram bash dokhtare asatiryam ke cheshmhaye masomo mehrabanat mara koli o khyaban gard karde ast...
aram basho dastat ra be man bede va be roozi fekr kon ke daryayat tofanist va man,,jesme man,,andame sabzeye man,,kenarat ja khosh karde azst va sarat ra roye payam migozaaram,,dastam ra roye mohayat mikesham,,gisovanat ra daste daste mikonam va az roye pishaniyat kenar mizanam,,cheshmanat ra mibandam va barayat lalaee mikhanam ta bekhabio aram shavii,,bedone tangye nafas,,nafas bekeshii..barayat kooh mishavam ta be man tekye dahi va raha khod ra aram koni....barayat dasht mishavam ta azad bedavi va bekhandii,,barayat panahgahe amni mishavam ta panah begiri ..barayat hame chiz mishavam ke hame chizam hasty dokhtar....!!!
bi parde migoyam,,bi haya migoyam...bi hejab......rohat ra be roham bespar ke roham ra be rohat sepordeam,,berahne bash ke barayat berahneam..oryan va bi takalof haye zamini,,raha va bi gheyd,,gostakh vahshi va....
be man farar kon,,be man farar kon ba lebase berahnegyat..be man farar kon va aram bash ke dar lebase berahnegy maasom tar mishavi va man masomane be aghoshat mikesham va mibosamat....mibosamat va nemidanam chand shab va chand rooz roye labhaye soraty rangat,,lab mizanam va nafasat ra mibalam..dar to maskh mishavam va baz mibosamat,,ta roozi ke roye labhayat nafase akhar ra bekeshamva ba bazdam akharam roham ra darone sine at ja bogzaram va beravam...Ta hamishe Aram bashii...Hamisheye hamishe...!!
_PeyNeVeShT__: dar sine deli namande bas ke deltangetam...!!
ghol dade boodi yagheye barani at ra bala bedahi,,roye sangfarshe khyaban beesti,,,ba mohaye khis khorde az yek barane paeezi negaham koni va,,,,varaye akharin bar negaham koni va baraye hamishe beravi...
ghol dade bodam roye nimkate sangy kenare khyaban benshinam..toye godale ab soratam ra negah konam,,,akharin ghatre ashk hayam ra ba dastmale nam zade pak konam va baraye hamishe faramoshat konam...
ne too be ghoat amal kardi na man...!!
hardoman kheili maskhare poshte sms ro b roye ham estadim,,sakht tarin harfha ra az ham shenidim,,bavar kardim ya nakardim?!! khafe shodim..!! lanat shodim va baraye hamishe az zendegye ham biroon oftadim..na ba pahaye larzan roye sang farsh haye khis khyabani nam zade an toor ke to gholash ra dade bodi va na ba cheshm haye pof karde az gerye antor ke man fekr mikardam...aslan hame mohasebateman ghalat az ab dar amad..!!
dasto pahayam be khab haye har shabe am ke to dar hame shan naghshe adam khobe ra bazi mikoni va man adam bade ra gir karde ast..!! dar khab hayam to hanooz ham mikhandi va hamishe tahe cheshmane baraghat neveshte: zood miravam..!! va man hamishe sarasime tar va darmande tar az dishab az khab miparam va ta shab par par mishavam!! man gharar bood hame ash ta hamin farda..!! na pas farda barayat sabr konam ama hala ta khode bahar sabr mikonam!! mikhaham in zemestane lanatye sard ke rad shod ham to bash,,ham baran haye ziyad..ham bahar...!!
zood raftee bi ensaf,,,kheili zoood..!!! aslan taghsire khodam bod ke fekr kardam to khodaee va to khoda nabodi!!! khoda az to kheili mehraban tar ast,,,dorost vaghty poshtam ra khali mikoni ke...yadat bashad doa koni..khab namanam...doa kon digar khabe ashegh shodan nabinam..magar man cheghadr del daram ke to na miravi na mimani?? ama man ta khode khode bahar sabr mikonam...
bar man bebakhshaeed
ke hegharate atasham ra
dar hofre haye khali az yad mijostam...
dir zamani bood ke shooghe kodakane ra
az khater zodode bodam
midanam ke zolmat
taghdire man ast
va nefrine abadi
sar anjame man
pass...
PeYnEVeSHt__: Vapasin neveshte haye eblis baraye Fereshte Zaminie Bi bal..!!
Cheghadr Delam baraye shab hae paezi tang shode bood...baraye rangha,,zard ha,,,sorkh ha,,,sabz ha va narenji ha...vaghty ke nam mikhurand va adam hes mikone ke kafye yekam ba dast paso pisheshon kone ta khoda ro ke poshteshon ghaem shode bebine...
vali emsal paez faghad zard darim....na az an rang haye zibayee derakhtae parke taleghani khabariye,,na az khandeo khoshi haee toolanii...hamishe sarmaee bodam,,yadete kapshenamono baham avaz mikardim,,be ghole to kapshene man sosooli bood va male too garm...!!
Chand rooz pish be in fekr mikardam ke delam baraye sedae bad..vaghty toye koche mipiche ,,vaghty barg hae derakhtaro tekon mide..vaghty ke aroom to soratet mikhureo bahat harf mizane..tang shode...
Emrooz be in fekr mikardam ke cheghadr delam vase khode baad tang shode..!! na sedash,,,bayae khode badd ,,ye bade ghaviii,,ke byado dar ye lahze mano az ja boland koneo ba khodesh bebare,,bebare ye jaee dge,,ye zamane dgee..
Migan deltangy haye adamaro bad mese tarane mikhune,,migan zooze mikesheo miyad mipiche to gardano goshhat o hey mikhune....hey mikhune....
migan paeze ke adamaroo Ashegh mikone,,adamaro divone mikone,,hichki az bad nemige...on soozi k to havas...chera hichkas nemige Paezi k ye rooz adamo ashegh mikone ,,momkene hamon rooz adamo az eshghesh joda kone..!!
chera hichkas nemige az roozaee ke ghadam mizani vasate asfalte toy ye koche khali,,pato mizari toye chale haye khiss,,mizari ke seedaye nafas keshidanet ba sedaye khesh kheshe leh shodane bargaye zardo khoshk ham rang beshe..ba khodet migi bad dare ye taraneh mikhune,,traneye deltangye ye adame tanharoo..mizarii byado bepiche roye shoonat..yani onam alan dare inkaro mikone?? hes mikone nafasash ba nafasat hamahang shode,,mese hamon shaba,,hamon shaba k midonii hichvaght faramosh nemishe!!
are hamon shabhaee k baham toye takht mikhabidim....saremono roye ye ballesh mizashtim.. va nafashaee k yeki mishood...!!
takhte khab makane monasebist baraye molaghate kasani ke fekr mikoni dosteshon dari,,on ham yek molaghate kheili nazdik...kheili kheili nazdiik...va nazdiktar...
labeye pato marze monasebist beyne yakhbandane harfha va negahha va daghye sozande,,,ro b roo jahate monasebist baraye khire shodan be ghasde tazahor b bimeyli..khamoshii vaziyate monasebist baraye cheragh khaab,,,baraye tasvir haee ke digar nemikhahi dar hafezaat sabt shavand..!!
Sokot ahange monasebist baraye pass zamineye ,,vaghty tamame harf hayat khatar nak hastand,,momken ast shab ra monfajer konnannd....va belakhare rooya sarzaminist monaseb baraye zendegy kardan,,vaghty hich tojihii baraye vagheyat nadarii...!!!
Tarane hae man ye joor gelaee az gharibiye...
be Del migam ye rooz miyad,,Inam ye khod Faribye!
Ashegha taghsim mikonan,Eshgho baraye Hamdige..!!
Nasibe Man Az Eshghe Too,,Hamishe bi nasibye..!!
___PeYnEVeSHT__ be khoda hich manzoori nadaram,,,,donbale badiha nagard,,,faghat Deltangihayam ra minevisam,,BaVaRam Kon!!
Adama Az Jone ham vaghean Che mikhan?? Gahii Be in Fek mikonam Ke Age Hame Chiz haye Doro Bare Man Zaedeye Takahayoye mane chera ye bakhshhaee In hame Siyaho Tariko Divone Konanade Dare Va Chera Hame Ghesmatash Ba hame Mojodate Rizo Doroshtesh Nemitunan IdeAL va Normal Bashan??? Shayad migii Az Toe RavanParish Bishtar az in Entezar Nist..!!
Vali Bazi Vaghta hast ke Yek Tanhaeye Khales Delet Mikhad..Az hamonaee ke bad az khoshi haye Tolani Modat miyad Toye Zehnet va hey por Rang o Por rangtar mishe,,Az Onaee ke tahe hame in roozhaE ke Na tanha Bad Nistan,,balke Toro Gharghe Lezat mikonan,,Az Hamonaee ke Toroo Az tamame Adamhaee Ke doseshon Dari Monzajer mikone........Az Hamonaee ke behet mige HAmisheye Khoda Gharare Khodet bashio Khodet Va in Admha Tanha Sharike Lahze haye Khoobe Zendegye To hastand...Na bishtar....
too Atishe eshtebaham bi seda daram misoozam,,
mituni mano bebakhshi Age yadami hanoozam...!!
Bi to Delgiramo khaste,,bi too viroonamo mobham...
Bavaram kon ke dige man, on mane hamishe nistam..
To ke pishami ye donya eshgho shadi Ro be roome,,
Nago forsaty namonde nagoo ke dige tamumee...!
Tamume harchi beyne mast tamumee..tamumee..tamumee...!!!
__PeyNevesht__: Age Man Ghalb Nakham Bayad Be Koja Va Che Kasi MoraJee KOnam???!!